Sep 20th, 2012 by Bilal Ali
Chad Johnson is a man in pain. That was fairly evident during his interview that aired Wednesday night on Showtime‚Äôs Inside the NFL. But despite getting cut last month by the Miami Dolphins following his domestic abuse arrest for allegedly head-butting then-wife Evelyn Lozada, Johnson is hoping he can hit the reset button on his career one more time. ‚ÄúI‚Äôm taking classes, anger management classes,‚ÄĚ he said. ‚ÄúI‚Äôm trying to find out how can I channel my anger when I‚Äôm in situations to where I would pop off? How can I defuse those situations?
‚ÄúWhen you get a humble Chad Johnson that has lost everything and has to work his way back up, that‚Äôs a big deal. Because you‚Äôre not getting that same individual, you‚Äôre not getting that same fun guy. ‚Ä¶ I gotta prove a point. That‚Äôs the scariest thing in the world to have someone that has that drive.‚ÄĚ Yet Johnson realizes the market for 34-year-old wideouts with declining numbers, outsized personas and legal issues isn‚Äôt exactly bustling.
‚ÄúI did a USA TODAY newspaper interview the day before the incident,‚ÄĚ said INFL analyst Cris Collinsworth. ‚ÄúAnd I said, ‚ÄėYou can say whatever you want about Chad. But he‚Äôs not a bad guy, he doesn‚Äôt drink, he‚Äôs not getting arrested.‚Äô Next day (the arrest). How did that happen?‚ÄĚ
Replied Johnson: ‚ÄúI made a mistake, I‚Äôm human. My time had come. ‚Ä¶ I take full responsbility for everything, always. ‚ÄúWhere do I go from here, now that I think about it? I gotta work on Chad. Chad has to work on Chad. Chad has to go deep down inside and figure out where he went wrong. At what point did you lose focus on what‚Äôs most important, especially the game of football?‚ÄĚ
But he was quite introspective and seemed to struggle at keeping his emotions in check. The loss of his marriage clearly weighs heavily on him. And he freely admitted that some of his off-field endeavors had become distractions. Yet he also contended the only reason the Dolphins cut him was for the arrest, not performance issues.
‚ÄúThat was the reason. There‚Äôs no need to blow my smoke up my ass, you know what I mean?‚ÄĚ he said, almost whispering the off-color word, yet unable to choke it back when reflecting on his departure from his hometown team. ‚ÄúFirst off, I lost two things that I love, honestly. Football, I love. You know that. And you know the way I play the game, I enjoy it, I have fun with it, you know? And being married, being a husband, being a lover, it was an honor. You know what I mean? And I lost that. And you know that saying, ‚ÄėYou never know what you have until it‚Äôs gone?‚Äô
‚ÄúAnd now I finally know what they mean.‚ÄĚ